Another Tear Stained Letter

I guess I’ve come to the realization that I’ll never have that love that I long for.
I’ve realized that its too late for me.
I could never be happy again
Even if I could be with you now
My heart would still ache
This emptiness inside me
I could never let you, or anyone else get close to me again
Since you called, all I have been able to do is think about how it all slipped away
Its easy for you, you drown it all out between the alcohol and all your wh0re$.
I wanted to be everything you needed, but I wasn’t enough for you
You claim that you’re the one who doesn’t deserve me.
Well isn’t that for me to decide?
I don’t want someone else
I want you
Does it really matter why I think so highly of you?
And what about all the tear stained letters I wrote you, but never had the courage to send?
“I promise” and “I love you” are all but meaningless words in a broken vocabulary which,
if you truly loved me, we would have no need for.
Is it because your name is permanently engraved into my skin that I cant let you go?
It doesn’t matter anymore
Because now, its just too late.
No more tear stained letters.

Copyright ©2006 Amanda Hope Indelicato