One life

My past.

building up a wall
doesn't matter cause i still fall
desperately trying to hide
crying, hoping i had died

cutting in fears
bleeding in tears
no friends stayed
for drugs i paid

my present.

heart pounding in my chest
I've been truly blessed
a love i never thought I'd find
turned out to be so kind

no more bleeding and cutting
only kissing and cuddling
you make me smile every day
I'll love you as long as i may

my future.

depression coming back
love starting to lack
paranoia twisting my mind
walls building you can now find

bleeding in secrecy
hurting, still lovingly
fears I'm following
can't help that I'm wondering

is it worth to fall in love?
i could've died and become a white dove

easy answer;
yes.