Lose control

Everything happens so fast.
nothing takes its time
we all lose control at times
some just lose it more than others
when i lose control
bad things happen
suicide pops in my mind
only one person can save me
from myself and my actions
that one person is the one i love
i'll do anything for him
anything that i need to that will make him happy
things that i do always screw up everything that matters
i am just a screw up
but he doesn't think so
he believes in me
he cares about me
he is the only one that makes me feel important now
he knows when i lose control
when i lose control hes there
he calms me down
control is the one thing that matters
if i can't control myself i end up hurting myself and others around me
i don't do it on purpose
i just can't control myself without him