I just thought that you needed to know
if you didn't know already
that i love you
and i am not trying to make you cry
or feel all gushie inside
i just didn't want you to forget that
and i hope that heaven is nice
i sure hope that i reach it from this hell someday
and i get to sit right next to you
at the dinner room table
just like we did for so long
and i hope that you haven't changed much
even though i have changed
i hold the memory of you so close to my heart
i just can't bear to lose
i feel bead that you aren't here right now
so many people need you here
you were the glue in my life
and in your family's too
we are all falling apart
i it hurts me inside
that i am never going to be able to do so much with you
go to bars
go to college
start our lives
i was so stupid to dream of those things
i wish you would have told me
i think the blow your disappearance would have been easier
and just to let you know
that if it were you
i would not be so strong now
and yes i fall sometimes
and haven't fully gotten back up from losing you
but i know that if it weren't for you
i could help others
and again just to let you know
you were and are my best friend
i love you so much
in a perfect life
with a perfect family
you would be my brother
