I need a Title

I'm not sure that you care anymore
But I figure I will share anyways.
This has come as somewhat of a shock
but, ahead are brighter days.

I started college just the other day.
It all seems so surreal.
I have so many mixed emotions.
I don't know what to feel.

The hurting and the anguish.
The tears I've cried at night.
I try to keep it bottled up,
so that dad don't see my fright.

You may not want to believe it
but I swear this much is true.
You have hurt all four of us
with what you are putting us through.

Again it's just the four of us.
We've all been through this before.
Our mother did the same thing
but this time it was more.

The first time that this happened,
I was just a kid
I didn't really know my mother
or understand what she did.

But here we go again,
once again, without a mother.
This time I understand it fully.
But it's ok-we have each other.

It's all I really ever had.
Just dad, the boys and Me.
I never really felt you were "there".
This much, you didn't see.

But,I'm slowly moving on
to bigger and better things.
I'm looking forward to the future
and anything that it brings.

I feel like time is flying by,
That I'm growing up so fast.
But you won't be here to share it.
Your memory's in the past.