Guilty for leaving my grandma alone to face the darkness forever..
She had committed suicide.. She was so unhappy, and i feel guilty for letting this happen i guess.. nothing can discribe how much that hurt me and my family. I hope that helped you understand where I am coming from. :-)

My friend Amanda's father killed his self and she talked to me about it a lot and she kept saying maybe if I would have called that day he wouldn't of done it. Suicide is not something people JUST do. Out of no where just decide they are going to do it right then and there....they think about it. And when someone is ready they are just going to do it. You can't stop it. It's never anyone's fault. I feel bad that you felt or feel that way. You shouldn't it. That was a very good poem!!