Crying

I always feel this emptiness,
These tears I always suppress.
Every crying sound I make,
For every pointless mistake.
I'm a nuisance and I'm worthless,
Always overcome by continuous stress.
I laugh as I reluctantly cry,
Every single day I beg to die.
But in response I suffer even more,
Cried till my eyes have turned sore.
Brought down by their meaningless words,
The thoughts in my mind that won't be heard.
They yelled at me till I couldn't stand it anymore,
Aching to run away through that door.
I couldn't move so I held the knife,
So i can finally release myself from life.
I tried to cut my weak wrist,
I was unable to try to slit it .
I stared at the my reflection,
My face wore no complexion.
It was pale and emotionless,
It looked liked a complete mess.
My eyes were red as if it were blood,
Almost like it was about flood.
I go to sleep crying on my bed,
I am still hanging by a thread.