As the sun begins to fade, darkness settles in
Broken and falling from grace, my heart goes black
Will I be able to keep pace, or is it time to swallow the end?
Can I put together the razor sharp pieces of us
That continues to hurt holding on
But still there is no comfort with it gone?
Nothing makes sense being so detached
My pen drains my pain into words
My lungs breath the disappointment I've become
My smile stretches a well groomed facade
Something is missing and the emptiness is preserved over time
My eyes are falling into the back of my head,
I'm just looking for a way out,
A brief moment in time, when the world is left behind
Of watching what I loved slip away
And feeling that despairing loss everyday
This bottle in my hand begins to disappear
I forget when I started, but I'm bound to end this
One pill, Two pills,...I smile, waiting for the end
My heart pumps hate to propel my actions
The light reveals my heart's sores left by you
That darkness has tried to deny what is true.
My eyes have been opening to a world of failure
And the loneliness I try to bear
The bottles dwindle, my emotions are amputated,
The world fades to grey, as I struggle against becoming sober
I'm going to a beautiful place to stay
And lose myself when someone comes searching
Hiding behind the sedation of leaving this world behind.
The walls are closing in, but I need some room
To take in my final air, and unlock some trapped farewells,
But I'm growing claustrophobic and all alone
Increase the dosage to void the pain
I don't want to feel so famished by shame
Lagging behind, the world keeps spinning,
Invisible, I reach for a hand,
Unheard, I scream for a ear
And here I lay paralyzed
Bleeding my mistakes away
Shot by shot, chased with pill after pill
Trivial hopes and strung out lies
Stalls a failing heart, sending crashing out of control
But light breaks through, dimly and distant,
The star begins to lead me on
Life begins to breathe in my veins
Memories of love refurnish my mind
And I remember that stars only shine
In the complete darkness of space
Whenever there is faith of a better day
There is a ray of hope and a better reason to stay.
