Sorry,I let You understand me WRONG

I really wanna apologize for you
as everything i told you was true
that i loved you and would ever do
your love's gone&only still the echo
of the shaded past which we lived before
you left me breathless&pain leaked into my core

I wanna say that i wasn't weak
when i loved you endlessly till the peak
of my soul,thoughts and emotions
my love could be deeper than oceans
i changed every little thing in me
to make you happy or let you see

What you mean to me but i failed to be
PERFECT and in the end who lost was me
sorry,i let you understand me wrong
you thought I'd still your way along
you appeared always like the angel
and i was the bad who can't split the tangle

You're a very good man,you played me right
you turned my life into hell with every trivial fight
i don't know how i loved you,how i trusted you
and you were from inside the hidden foe
i can't turn back to you again
i can't stand more tears or another pain

Leave me alone;I'll heal my scars myself
time can cure my hurt if it was like the shelf
but only believe in that I'll never think of you
to go on,considering you dead
and will always search for a new life ahead
so sorry as i let you understand me wrong