There have been many before you, and
I know there wont be any after you have gone,
I need you to know what Im feeling
I havent spoke my mind in so long, and
I know no matter what comes, or
whose hands paint dreams more vividly,
you have entered, and delivered me, and
I will never love this way again.
Youre not only my lover, youre my best friend
and, even though this is wrong
I dont want us to end
Id gladly take half of you for eternity
if it meant at least some of your time
would be spent here with me
In the bliss of the reality i have created
I love you, baby, and im tired of debating
fighting battles with myself about
the person I should be-
I know I shouldn demand more, you gimme so much already
And, the only time I cry is when I think about
you future deception- after the love is made-
and, were talking about our foundation
laying the groundwork for the future we want.
Even though I know it will never come to,
I blindly hold on...
because I want to believe in us.
I want to believe you can forgive me, but
I know you never will, and it hurts
becuase knowing all of this doesnt
change that I love you still.
I am not perfect, I never claimed to be,
but I wanted to be the woman you deserved,
so I changed all those bad things in me-
I stopped cursing, and smokin, and partying all the time.
Didnt seek company from strangers-
everything I needed was in your eyes, but i had to have my cake,
and, eat it too.
hurt feelings and intoxication drove me to dishonesty
But, now I AM through.
i will forever be in debt to you.
and i know i dont deserve you but
I cant- no- I refuse to share you!
There have been many before you, and
I am kno there wont be any after you have gone,
I must let you know how I feel
I havent spoke my mind in so long.
