Just Okay

It's not that I'm not happy
And not really even depressed
It's just that I so often don't feel "alive"
As if my emotions have been repressed.
It's not that things are awful, mind you
Just that they're not great
I know there's so many of you out there
That with this can relate...
I would like to have someone special to love
As I feel I'm getting older...
But more and more I feel
That this world just keeps getting colder..
People are jaded and cynical,
Don't want to take the chance
They've been down that road before
And they've danced the dance...
Money's always, always tight
Never enough to even pay the bills
It just seems so unfair sometimes
"They" don't even have to work, but still have all the frills!!
I have several great friends in my life
They bring me back up when I am down
But sometimes I even wonder there
Why they truly come around...
Is it because of what I do for them
Or do they really enjoy the person that is me?
Why can't I just accept their friendship
And just let them be?
So, no..my life isn't terrible
I'm no longer beaten or abused
I guess my main complaint
Is that sometimes I tend to feel used.
I work hard everyday
And come home so tired...
But no appreciation there...
Work harder, or you're fired!
My son is terrific
A very loving little boy
But he doesn't always understand
Why he can't have every little toy...
I'm always on the run it seems
Between work, school, and chores
Sometimes I just feel overwhelmed
Like I can't take anymore...
But as I said, my life's okay...
I'm not trying to bring a frown to your face...
There are so many others
Who would give anything to be in my place
So I'll try to be more grateful
For the good things in my life
Remember all of the joy and love
And forget all the strife..