Pain is taking over on the inside

I'm drowning
i cant get out
drowning in tears
they wont stop, they cant stop until i feel him again
on the outside i put on a happy face
but on the inside
i cant breath! i can only bleed
i wont care if i die tonight with a knife as long as i feel him
pain is taking over
my life is no more
he knows what i need and i plead and plead
as i try to breath but no ones around to listen
I'm alone on the inside
its just me and the moon!