What do you see when you look at me?
i kno that inside you feel pity
but why? do you kno? cuz u dont kno me
im not the ignorant person that you think i am
all i am is a dreamer who wants to stay away frm da pen
jus cuz im young dont mean nuthin
i aint like the other homies u see who is always puffin
i have dreams in my head n there aint no one but me sleepin in my bed
but the dreams that i have will never come true
because im always judged by ppl like you
so think about it and try to understand
i come from a place where being smart is seemed to be banned
every where i look gangs surround me
all the people i hang with say you better be down for the homies
when they look at me they all kno i want to go places
but they also think that i have to help knock of faces
because of the decision that i made long ago
i have to be the other me and act too slow
they all call me dreamer cuz this life i want out of
im always prayin and lookin above
i dont want to die or live my life running
you will never see me coming to you tryin to be bumming
so when you look at me try to understand
tha place that i come frm smart ppl are banned
i do what i have to do but take skoo seriously
i will always be down for the homies but not goin to tha parties
because i will one day make sumthin of myself
but i kno i will do it without their help
but jus cuz i want out of this life dont mean i aint down
every day i either have on a smile or a frown
smile now and cry later is what they say
they dont know that i want out more and more every day
one of these days i will make a new life
one without hurt and the struggle to survive
you see i have the goal to live
to one day get married and have a kid
but for now im here with my crew
contemplating my life and wondering what to do
so now that you have read this what are your thoughts?
will you continue to judge me and say \"she needs a boss\"
so im living my life but i have so many dreams
but for me to get out right now i dont have the means
but i will get out before im met by the reeper
thats why my thoughts are called \"Thoughts of a DreameR"/
