Just Another Write

I hate my self for trying.
All your doing is killing me and I am dying.
tears come out faster and I am crying.

I dont know why I am liket his
I have a problem
I am not in denial
i just with some how I could see a smile
you are everything to me, but I know i am not worth your while.

I do not know why I am falling
but I can not seem to get up
I am crawling into a crave and i am not coming out.

my heart hurts
it is torn apart
nobody seems to find.
the emotional side to me
all they seem to do is pick on me
and beat up on me.
nobody sees the other side i would like to be.

i want to be as something good,
before i die.
I dont want to hear any one cry.
I would love to hear that some one tried.

I hate being mean
but that is all people see me as
and when i do try and be nice.
they think its all a little act
i try my harderst
but i guess nobody sees the real me
is trying to let everyone else see me being me.

-emokid