I look at my life
all 16 years i see
the pattern is simple
the pattern has little please
i can name them off
one by one
the people i lose
until they are all gone
and what is sad
the thing that makes me cry at night
is knowing someone else will soon leave
and i look at this pattern
i am getting less and less time
is there any point in going on
my family left
though still here
i know their gone
all because of who i am
and that is what they dislike
my best friend
we moved away and never speak
my first love
gosh that was a peak that i loved so deep
but i lost that too
god took the next one
after the three best years of my life that i can remember
which is another that is gone
happy memories just flood away
and now in the present
i dare not speak
for just told of the next to the list
my dear friend cait and my loving crush scott
will soon be waiting with the others
and i tell you this
i am sick of this loss
this never ending pattern
this never ending fight
and i question you this
if i keep losing people
does that mean i am lost
does that mean i will lose myself
will i be gone
will it be lost
is it going to be faster than the first
because if you look close
you can see the downward slope
you can see i get less and less time
and all i want to know now
is if i am near the end
because if not
i will fall and roll
once at rock bottom
i'll be in heaven
and i will be able to be with
the ones i have lost
