It was murder

As i sit all by myself
thoughts of you entered my Head thinking of how you would react
when my parents call saying I'm dead

I'm not all that sure
of what you would do
but i just want to say
i will always love you

just because we cant talk anymore
doesn't mean to say
that i wont be thinking of you
each and every day

so when i leave
remember your my friend forever
don't forget what they say
friends always belong together

so please dint forget me
all the tears have been cried
and read my suicide note
see how i really died

i guess it wasn't really what you thought
there was no way it was suicide
there was self harm
but it was murder it was homicide

they made it look like there was nothing wrong
that everything was alright
but there wasn't anything that was fine
i had been trying to put up a fight

they abused me and raped me
and led me to self harm
thats why theres so many scars
on my legs and my arm

they tried to get me
whenever they could
but i just wished they'd back off
like i knew they should

but oh no they wouldn't
they just had to pick on me
they hurt me so bad
and its that they couldn't see

so it wasn't really my choice
it wasn't really suicide
it was all their fault
it was murder it was homicide