Striving to starve

Have u ever felt,
that everythings crashing down?
and that everyday sorounds you,
with an even deeper frown.
when theres no way of escaping,
peoples deepest stares,
while ur so gently avoiding,
having ur food scares.
the sleezy looks uve hated,
for oh so long now,
u are now seeking,
still shrinking somehow.
u know u will not stop,
u havedeveloped a special nack,
even though from now on in,
theres no turning back.
cause maybe uve forgotten,
what u used to see,
when ud look into that mirror,
the one thats possesing me.
do nnot get me wrong,
i mean really do i mind,
im not trying to hram myself,
i just want some peace of mind