Accidental Suicide

Death and pain all around
I wanna feel what I'm drowning in
So I pick up a blade and start,
I create line after line
I can't stop
I need to feel
all the pain that seems surreal
I keep cutting till the blade falls from my hand,
The blood runs like water
from my arms,legs and wrists.
The painful memories from the past,
still running through my head.
I fall to the floor
begging, screaming, please no more.
I feel weak
I close my eyes,
as the memories intensify.
Then I see her
My angel
I ask her why she is there
she says because your dying
I say I don't want to die
cause I'm still so young.
As my world starts to go black
she tells me it's to late now
you chose the other track.
I say to myself
what have I done
the battle could have been won,
but i chose the easy way out.
But now i start to fade away,
never again to come back,
never to see my brighter day.