One More Try

Electric pulses run through my chest
As they try to make my still heart
Want.to.beat.
But oh,no, it wants to be difficult just like me.
My hands twich with the last surge of life
That runs through them making my fingers tingle
And my skin, it wants to crawl.
And on your count, One, Two, Three
Another shock.
Finally we arrive
Sirens cease
Bushes shaped like teddy bears trying to convince us
That we want to live
But if that's true
Why am I here again?