Just hurt without a dad

I'm 18 and grown

but with a father unknown

so many questions lie within my head

sometimes it hurts so much i wish i was dead

to know a fathers love is just a dream

and that feeling makes my heart ache and scream

inside my head that scream just rings

hurt and pain is what it brings

why was it me that had no dad

what did i do to get the life i did

stuck in a black jar of life with a sealed lid

I try and try to get out

why is it, having no father makes me pout

the harder and farther i reach to get out

The farther into the darkness i fall

on my hands and knees crying

inside of myself everything is dying

i hate all this pain inside of me

it feels like my body is bleeding internally

drowning in my own blood

gasping for air within this bloody flood

when will all this pain slip away and end

or will my life just fall deeper into this bloody bend