Another sleepless night

I'm sitting here at two in the morning,
School is only a few hours away,
But every time I close my eyes,
I see your face,
I see your smile,
I see your hands,
and i see your feet,
with the toes all the same length-
I've been dying to see your face again-
But it hurts-
It hurts because it's not real-
I can't touch you
Or tell you I love you
You won't hear me
Or see my tears
You never let me say good-bye-
You just went away
You just died
In a bath tub
Layed your lifeless body
Death written on your soul
I wanted to die with you-
Didn't you know that one more-
hit-
would kill you-
Or did you care?
Didn't you know I'd die inside?
Didn't you know I would become someone I hate?
Another pill,
Another line,
Two more shots
And a hit,
I'm trying my hardest to join you