Wondering

I can't stop wondering
Why this always happens to me
Is it because of my past
Or simply because I'm not pretty

Is this the way things
Are always going to be
Me needing him...
And him only using me

Will I ever be strong enough
To just walk away
Or will I continue to crawl behind your leash
As you lead me on day to day

Will they ever understand
Why I let you do this to me
Or with they just continue to remind me
The truth I pretend not to see