I feel like all the stuff I been through doesn't matter
I will always be unhappy
And empty hearted
I have cried so many tears I can't cry anymore even though I want too
I feel like no matter what and who and I love I will loose them
Someway or another
I feel fake
And like what I say in these pathetic poems doesn't matter
and that the aren't good enough
Am I not aloud to be happy
And do I have to be alone in this world
The 2 people that bring a true smile to my face aren't around all the time
And one of the few people I trusted I let go of, or he let go of our friendship
I know I need to grow up and get over feeling sorry for my self
I just feel like I have no one talk too
And in the darkness I feel like letting go
But I never do
Is this my punishment for not believing in him
For denying his existence
And for saying he could never exist with all the hate in the world
The truth is how could he?
I know hell excisets I am living in it
The deep empty depths of hell is my life
and my heart will always fight emptily
Making me stronger and stronger till I defeat those that I surrendered too
