Frustration, anger, and sadness I'm filled with this. When I try to tell you whats wrong you stop me with a kiss. When I'm angry a lot of it's because of you, but I love you so I wont say a thing because if I lose you I wont know what to do. I don't want to hurt you like you do to me, like when you ignore me to watch T.V. I tell you eventually that it bothers me and you'll stop and then again you start. You're really starting to break my heart. Everything was fine at the beginning but now I wonder if its time for it to end. Is that what you want because thats the message you send? You may not mean to it may not be your intension but it brings me so much tension. You say I want it my way all the time but I think a lot of it you have your way. I can't take it anymore I just have to open up and say. That things shouldn't have to be like this cant we do something to change? isn't;t there anything we can do to organize our lives together we can arrange. Nothing is the way it was when we started what happened to you and me, are we really meant to be, if we are its covered by darkness and it doesn't look like there is any light. Maybe I'm just holding on to something that is slipping away from my grip looks like I'm about to loose the fight. I'm not blaming myself anymore because I know I did everything I could to make it right. If you do not love me anymore I will understand. There where times when I thought we where the best couple in the world and I felt so close to you when you gave me your hand. The way you looked at me it was like the angels where singing from above and I thought I had found love. It must have been only lust it faded away and came nothing swept away in the gust. I don't feel hurt just shocked and unsteady I really wasn't ready. but things have happened and he is gone and now I'm left alone. We seemed so happy nobody could have seen no one could have known. Today I'm ending it because I can't take it anymore, I taking my things and I'm leaving, slamming the door.
