A Friend

There's a friend who's no longer around
One of the best, she's one that I found
I'm glad I fought for her even though she's not here
Because she helped to make my life clear

Without her I would have known nothing of my feelings and cares
Never would I have known that she was there
And now she's gone after I hurt her so bad
Now she can't hear that I'm sorry she's sad

I still mail, and chat when I can
I should have never believed the friends of my ex-man
We could have been friends for forever but instead
I took all the rumors and threw them at her head

I hated her for those few moments I hated everyone for my tears
But I didn't let them show, I just hit her with my fears
And when she couldn't talk anymore
I walked off the bus and in the school doors

Everyone said how good I was
For pushing her away because
They didn't like her and wished she were dead
That's when my words started running through my head

I wanted to run over to her and say that I was sorry
But everyone around her just glared
They acted as though even though i tried
I didn't ever care

Now that she left were friends again
It should have been that way till the end
But I'm happy that we even have this chance to be
Happy as two friends should seem