A child\'s mind

Life isn't very funny
i want him to love me
love me with the intensity
in which i love him

it was just a kiss
it was just a hug
it was just my mind
leading me to think the impossible

but i guess I'm to blame
I'm only doing this to myself
no guy wants the wonderful
"leave flowers on my porch" relationship

i still think of the boy
his deep dark brown eyes
seeing right through my lies of feeling fine
and he makes me want to smile forever

i thought he was the one
whom i could love sweetly
and he could love me too
but each lovely kiss was only that: a kiss

why cant i know before
why isnt there a fence around him
a big ugly neon sign hanging from his neck saying:"i am a heart breaker. stay away"

i know lifes not supossed to be fair
it just wouldnt be right
maybe it I didnt look into his beautiful eyes
i wouldnt hurt as much

i think maybe, just maybe
im hurting myself
more than any guy ever has.
but why would i do that?

this is entirely my fault, i know, i know
i fall in love fast and i always crash
my sensitivity is unmatched
by the mind of a most fragile child

but i wont change
because even if it is only a hug
i get to pretend they actually care
and i never get to do that