Forever I'm dead inside,
nothing can take this pain i hide,
forever i was always broken,
they always seem to never understand i was never open.
they think they can take my pain away,
but they don't know i cry everyday,
they think that I'll be alright,
but they don't know what i do at night.
they tell me to stop picking up knifes and razor blades,
where i sleep is where my blood lays,
on my arms theres scars and bruises,
in this game of life I'm losing.
they try to tell me everything will be okay,
but i don't listen to any they say,
they give me pills to ease my pain,
but they don't know its more i gain.
maybe I'll run away from life,
so i don't have to turn to a knife,
maybe I'll let tears fall from my eyes,
so i can stop thinking of all these lies.
I keep on thinking of my past,
knowing my life will never last,
now my thoughts are very clear,
that every night I'll fall asleep in tears.
to wake up from the morning light,
to find I'm losing my sight,
to think i have to choose,
to run away or to stay to lose.
maybe I'll stay to live to die,
and close my eyes and wait to cry,
I was surprised to see what i have saw,
none of my tears have yet to fall.
i drop my bloody knife to the floor,
and start to walk right out my door,
I'll stop the pain, i wont cut anymore,
my wrist is starting to get really soar.
If i could i would give life another chance,
as i look at my arms in once more glaces,
i just wish i coulds start a knew life,
one that i never picked up a knife.
a life with joy and pride,
one that I'm not dying inside,
i life i can never begin,
just cause my dirty little sin.
now to end it all my room begins to spin,
my eyes starting to close becoming really thin,
to fall asleep in the middle of the night,
to wake up to find i won my fight.
to live another day,
just to try to cry my pain away
