Obsessions

I have a little problem,
a pure fear from my heart,
Sat around the table,
cutting my food apart,

Watching everybody,
to see them watching me,
Looking at my plate,
feeling as sick as I could be,

Covering my face with my hands,
hiding all of my tears away,
Trying to force my meals down,
they are moaning at me today,

Saying I eat way too slow,
and never clear my plate,
I say I am not that hungry,
I am obsessed with my weight,

I skip lunch if I can help it,
I eat just one meal a day,
I only manage half of it,
This problem is here to stay,

I am scared it is getting worse,
It started with a healthy diet,
I have a growing fear of eating,
now I always feel weak and tired.

Sorry just going through a tough time right now. I'm not sure why i'm like this but I know it's not good. People say i'm being silly and my figure is great. Yes I am slim but it's my legs that feel fat to me. I cut out crisps and chocolate cos it isn't good for me.

Copyright 2006 - Amanda Linzi