Letting god take control

I was hurt so bad
By your hatred and pain
How you could ever do that to a nice person like me
I'll never understand

So I sat down to write
A poem that would slander you
I set out to curse you
For all that you put me through

But the pen had a different idea
It was controlled by someone else
So intstead this is a letter to you
To thank you for your help

Thank you for helping me
Let my creator take control of my reins
How they ended up in your hands, I don't know
With that power only came pain

I was wasting my life
Hating you
Hating the lies
Hating the girls you were with at the same time
I was so consumed with hate
I became a different person
But because i thought i loved you
I believed all of it was worth it

But God pulled me aside
and set my thoughts straight
and showed me that love is not something
which is so full of hate

He showed me the way
And reassured me my love life wasnt cursed
So now never again will I love someone
Without getting God's permission first.

thank you-

if yall could please comment it would mean a lot... this one was really hard for me to write.