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My make up hides my face
Everything I don’t want you to see
My smiles shows the effort
It takes to hide me
But its alright, I don’t mind
Its worse for me when you care
I’ll just wear longer sleeves
Pretend the cuts were never there
I’ll look you in the eye
Tell you all you want to hear
While I glance at him in darkness
He’s the only thing I fear
And ill turn up my angry music
Drown out all their screams
Push away all my hate
Leave it for my dreams
When I’m alone I’ll be myself
I’ll cry and scream and haunt
But for now I’ll just smile
I’ll be everything they want
I’ll tell him that I hate him
That we just weren’t meant to be
I’ll tell them that I hate them
So that they’ll hate me
And until the devil welcomes me
Or the angles die above
I’ll just keep on hating
Until I learn to love