Leaving you an out

What if the world starts
sucking me in
with this tidal wave of emotion
that i have no idea how to handle?

could you
(just maybe)
give me your hand?

could you
(but you don't have to)
pull me out...
even if it meant you might
fall in too?

i just thought you might want to
(it's okay if you don't)
be with me tonight and
maybe talk forever or
not say anything at all or
both
at the same time because
that seems to be easiest...

easier than
explaining myself, at least.

i love that you
don't hold back
while i keep fading
in and out
up and against you but
let's not go there right now
(unless you want to)

(and why can't i just
say this straight out?
why can't i
why can't i
why can't i
be real?)