I'm Scared To Love You

How can I admit it to you?
I can't seem to admit it to me.
How can I start anew?
There's so much you'll never see.

I can't restrain my feelings,
I can't withold my love,
Yet I can't expose this weakness,
I must remain above.

Trying to be cold and heartless,
Pushing you away,
I cannot stand that your closeness,
Makes me feel this way.

I wish it could be different,
I wish I wasn't me,
Yet I am, and know I can't,
Change what I must be.

You make me want to fly,
You and I, together,
But I'm afraid of heights,
And I fear forever.

My love for you is like a curse,
I cannot make it fade,
I cannot express myself in verse,
This love will not decay.

I can't tell you what I feel,
It would be my downfall,
The love within is real,
I'll hide away 'til nightfall.

I'll wallow in my pain,
I'll drink to the night again,
Wondering why I was afraid,
Knowing that I'll never change.