I'm sorry that hearing me
Talk to while I'm crying
Hurts you so much
I'm sorry but I couldn't help it
I just miss you so much
And knowing that there's nothing
I can do to make you realize
That I have stopped my habit
Doesn't help much either
If I haven't cut by now
I am not going to anymore
Now that we are not together
Is the worst pain I ever felt
I will never have anything
To make me cut myself again
Because if I don't cut
Because you are now gone
Than therem's nothing for me
To cut myself over anymore
You being gone is the worst
And nothing could ever
Hurt nearly this bad
I want you to understand that
I regret cutting ever single day
I'm sick of hiding
All forty on my leg
And now the X on my arm
I don't want anything to hide
Now I know that cutting
Only causes more problems
Cutting never really helped
All it did was switch the pain
From emotional to physical
And then back to even more
Emotional pain because
Now I have to live with the fact
That I was very stupid
I thought it got rid of
Emotional pain but in fact
It only gave me twice as much
What else can I tell or show you
To make you finally understand
That I no lover cut myself
Also I was thinking about
You leaving during the summer
Are we going to be together
Before you have to go
I know I will miss you
Whether I'm dating you or not
But if we were dating
I would feel so much better
Knowing that when you come back
I will be going out with you
But if you leave before
We get back together again
Then I would be extremely sad
With the fact that
You will never think of me
When you would come back
I can't see you anyways
Because we are not dating
And I can't wait until August
At band camp to see you
That's two whole long months
Of nothing but sadness
But if we were to be dating
Then I would at least get to
See you sometimes when you
Would have a Saturday off
But me knowing you could be home
And me not being able to see you
Is just so very heartbreaking
All I'm asking is for us to
Go back out before you leave
So I can have some kind of hope
During my lonely summer days
That's all I'm asking all I want
