I have tried so hard to tell my self that Ur gone, but yet Ur still will me.I try to hide the pain ,but yet it stings like a bee . I thought u might still be here I like am for u my dear, but in stead u leave me crying on my bed.I cant get these memories out of my head.Ur hurting me so bad why can't u see that i wish I was dead. Try to cope, try and give me some hope that every thing is going to be OK.try and walk in my shoes maybe u will fell the pain too.every thing beautiful is now gone and I feel as if I don't belong. U where my shoulder to cry upon when thing got tough. Now u gone and the edges of my life r ruff . I cry I cant fell tears coming out of my eyes. God please send me an angle from the heavens above, send me an angle full of love. I need some thing to remind me of u because when they left I lost all faith in u. I need u back. U made every thing good, and if u weren't hear long ago u know that I would be gone. Please take my hand, just take my life, I don't need it any more. So I will run away u will see me run out the door. Why wont u let me take my life, why every time I hold the knife it falls to the ground. Why every time I try to fly I fall b/c I'm flying with out wings. Being me seems so hard, but then I look at they're life then my seems perfect. I will blame every thing on my self. Maybe then they will stop putting me through this hell.u know what I mean please just save me, I don't think this is worth my life. Why do we all have to go and throw our life away over one guy, one miss conception, one small thing that could be fixed, but Instead we chose not to mix. That love took it's tole on me.why could he see that I loved him. Now I have lost them. They got on that plain and said they would never return again. I saw them fly away, but why did they have to go on that day? Why did those men have to my my daughter father less, why did they have to make him life less. Why did we have to be in a fight. I told my self that I was going to say sorry that night, but he never returned. And now he is in heaven because he boarded the flight on 9/11.
