I am not being me
cant you see
that i have not been my self lately
this is not me
i guess i am the one who cant see
all that has been going on between
you and me
has made me change to how u want me to be
now i want to be how i used to be
the old me
that didn\'t have all this drama around me
but cant you see how much every thing is hurtin me
or are you blind just like me
i can say one thing but feel another
that\'s just me hidin my feelings
cuz i know they can smother another
with hopes and dreams
actions and intentions
feelings and relationships which i go through so fast
which has left me with nothing but a whole bunch of feelings for alot of people that dont even care about me or feelings which by the way i can hide them so well you couldn\'t tell if i was going through
hell
i would just smile and try to sell you a fake smile and say
fake words to cover up my real feelings even more
I\'ve gotten to be a pro at it
a pro at that
the fact that
I\'m still in love with you, i care about you, i dont want you to be mad at me & I\'m sorry for all the lies i told all the hearts I\'ve broken all the words unspoken all the tears you shed all the lies I\'ve fed to you.
you see that is just ME NOT BEING ME
