Feelings of a homosexual

Knowing for so long but not wanting to admitted to myself was the hardest thing ever, ever since 8th grade i knew my attractions for the same sex weren't right, i felt ashamed i feel so bad. Trying to put this feelings i tried but how can i, this is who i am. Acceptance wasn't easy, it's still not to this day but what can i do when this is part of me. I have fallen in love with girls, dated many at the time but never did i thought that the day when realism was gonna stab me in the back. My own friends the ones i though i could rely on for support for love, don't even accept me; i thought they did, i was so wrong. I am like any other girl in this world, i have feelings, a heart, a mind...i too suffer even if i am gay like everyone says. i wont deny this path that was meant for me hasn't been easy, trying to be straight i have but every time failing because i know i cant, this is who i am. I am the girl that likes the same sex, the one that puts her head down when she feels alone and sad. people don't know how bad they hurt me when they don't understand, i am not a monster i am just someone with different interest and different perspectives...i cant make everyone happy, but i truly do hope that one day i can be happy. i want my parent to accept me to love me for me, yes i know it is a sin, but how can i change it? how? if someone knows please tell me...