Recollections

The deafening Screams that flow ear to ear.
The Echoes left behind, sending shivers up my spine.
"Is this what it's come to?" I scream out loud.
Only..nothing replies..

The darkness creeping in around me.
It smothering me, the feeling almost to much to take.
"WHY!?" I scream in a high pitched squeal..
Yet..No one speaks.

The tears flowing rapidly down my cheeks.
A pool of redness surrounding my body.
"Is this what you wanted!?" I manage to sob out..
This time..a small faint "Never.." being heard through my gasps for air.

Neat incisions running along both wrists..
The blood flowing freely around me.
"I'm sorry" I choke out, almost unable to stay conscious any longer.
Then..out of no where..A screaming.
So deafening it hurts.
So Loud..It makes you cringe at the sound of it.

"Why did you do it?!!"
Clearly being heard over and over again in my mind as my eyes close.
A shadowy figure reaching his hand out wards at me.
My body, lying limply in the blood that now stops coming out from the wounds..

"I'm sorry.." I whisper once more as he grabs me into his arms.
Tears flowing down his face, hitting the pools of blood before splattering onto my hands.
"So am I" he replies..

I see nothing but darkness.
The coldness of not being loved.
Knowing I messed up.
Mistakes I made.

"I wish they could be changed.." I mutter rather softly.
Blue eyes staring down at him, my body standing in a ghostly figure by his body.
"I never meant too.."I continue speaking..

One wet tear.
That fell onto his hand.
One last recollection of me.
Before I go.

"I love you." I say.
My eyes shutting as I finally leave.
In happiness yet so alone with out him.
Just a mistake one made.
In something that's life.

©Megan - 2006