Why did you say it

When you said those words, i didn't know what to say. i didn't know if i should have said them back or, leave it at what it was.

when i wanted to say them back i guess it was to late. Because when i asked if you really said it or if i was dreaming, you said that you didn't mean them, you didn't mean to say it.

you asked if i was disappointed, i couldn't say yes, i had to lie to you and hold back the tears.

The tears they wanted to come to let you know what i wanted to say, that i wanted you to know that i wanted to love you. that i wish i could of said them the day that you said i love you.

Why was it when you where ready i wasn't about to say it, but when i finally realize that you meant the world to me. you said you should have never said it.

I know i shouldn't hurt this bad but i really do. i mean i didn't say them back to you, when you really wanted me to. i realize that i might of hurt you to.

But then we got off the phone and i still didn't want the tears to come. It didn't matter anyways the came like a flood. As i gasp for the air that filled my lungs and ask a question, why can't i be loved.

laying in my bed still the flood of tears. wondering what would have came of it if i only said i loved you too.

time for bed i cry myself to sleep.