I apologize black woman for allthe seen and unseen lies,
For the heartache and pain thatbrought tears in your eyes.
I apologize black woman for not being true from the start,
forrunning away from you, leaving a hole in your heart.
For ignoring your feelings and pushing them aside,
because I was too damn arrogant and pumped up with pride.
I apologize for making promises that I couldn`t keep,
for building a foundation based on treachery and deceit.
Being selfish and inconsiderate,
I did what I wanted to do,
making costly decisions without thinking of you.
I apologize for not holding you through restless nights
and stormy days, for my immature thoughts and my foolish ways.
Instead of carrying your love with me, I just threw it on the shelf,
after we made love I turned away, only thinking of myself.
You cried your heart for me, while I was out running wild and loose,
I destroyedthe essence of your love
with physical, mental, & emotional abuse.
I gave you hell black woman by giving up when times got rough,
I didn`t slap you, I pushed you, I neglected you--
even that`s bad enough!!!
Now I see why you build a wall around you,
because it is me you despise,
but that`s the price that I have to pay
for all the times I wore a disguise.
I pray to GOD that one day you will realize
that I LOVE YOU BLACK WOMAN.
I APOLOGIZE
