(39) This is my life

I know what you all think
that I'm trying to pretend
but when i say i hate my life
i really want it to end

i don't want you to pretend
that you care and know how i feel
cause i know its just fake
I'm the only one who can feel its real

don't look at me in disappointment
i just want you to ignore
cause when you talk about me
it makes me feel so sore

i don't want to die
i just wanna smile
and feel the happy i used to
for a least a little while

I'm happy when I'm with my boy
cause i feel he really knows
how i feel,, when i cry
cause he loves me and lets it show

i admire you so much
your keeping me on this ground
my perfect little boy
the one i love and,, I'm glad i found