Not Good Enough

Immense amounts of pain that I feel crashing,
Wave upon wave
Inside my head
I wish...I wish I were dead,
As cliched as that sounds,
On the grounds that I'm sure no one needs me anymore.
"Not good enough"
My inner me screams at my veins
Battering my beleagred soul
I can't do it anymore.
F ck you all who do your bit
Then turn as if it's enough.
An enquiry here
A slight smile there.
I'm not good enough for you.
How well I know it.