Closing the door on life

Stuck inside my body
thoughts trapped in my mind
hidden inside a little girl
secrets i yearn to find

years of hatred and torture
endless nights of tears
and painfully self harm
because of my worst fears

scars engraved in my body
words echoing in my head
drinking to forget the pain
and the life that i dread

searching for the exit
wondering which way to turn
theres nothing keeping me here
i have nothing left to learn

so choose me to go
i don't wanna be here no more
i cant stand this cruel world
I'm closing the last door