Broken

- Written earlier this year

The walls are white, reflecting the shadows
Cast over this room, so bare
My heads pounding, I've been crying so hard
My world's caved in, I'm gasping for air

The main doors hardly ever open here
There's little space to move
Just two small intersecting corridors
Two dorms, and one communal room

There's so many different patients around
But somehow they all look the same
Half ten at night I've seen them line up
To be given the drugs that 'ease the pain'

And the night times are the very worst
With the screams in the middle of the night
Echoing down the barren hallway
As another person loses the will to fight

I cling onto my blanket, and hide my face
Hoping I'll at last feel some relief
But nothing seems to soothe this pain
It's getting harder and harder to breathe

Where are you now? I'm shaking now
These tall walls are closing in
They watch you here and never leave
But still don't see the pain within

You promised that this would never happen
You said you wouldn't go?
Everyone said I was slowly taking my life
Why was I the last to know?

I tried so hard to leave this place today
I tried and tried to run away
But the nurses kept on holding me back
They are forcing me to stay

I heard them say I'm ill, that if I try to leave
They'll put me under a section
They told me I had to calm down and have this pill
Or they'd be forced to use an injection

I don't belong here, I'm a prisoner
Trapped in these walls of stone
A nurse is always an arms reach from me
But I still feel so alone

And so I lay here, just half awake
I have not the strength to fight
Feeling so far away, my head in my hands
Shielding teary eyes from the light

The walls are white, reflecting the shadows
Cast over this room, so bare
And all those people said things would be okay
Here I am, broken with despair