In loving Memory of my boyfriend, Gavin Mussleman(1989-2005)

Gavin, why did you have to go?
you were my everything
my shining star
your smile would light up the darkest of places
and without you by my side,
I feel lost.
I wish that you were still here with me...
instead of in Heaven.
That may sound selfish,
but I loved you so much
You knew that I was always here for you and that I would do anything for you.
If you were hurting so much,
then why didn't you say anything to me about it?
was your life really filled with so much sadness that you felt as if you needed to take your own life?
there are so many things that I want to ask you,
so many things that I need to ask you so that I can understand why you did what you did.
there are so many people that miss you
and so many people that loved you...
Gavin, No one had any idea what you meant to me...
but now I'm learning to move on
and I think that I've found someone else who loves me...
no one could ever mean as much as you did to me,
but he has lost someone very close to him too
and he understands what I went through and what I'm still going through,
You will always hold a special place in my heart
and I will always love you.