Oh Lord Help Me!

by Ren   May 19, 2006


I don't know what to do anymore!
I can't even write a poem that makes sense!
It's like I lost touch with everything,
And just everyone and every single object,
On this earth,
Has gone crazy...
And nothing is right anymore!

I can't think straight,
My head has gone wild,
And I feel the absence of love,
Like a poor, lonely child.

My heart is damp and confused,
I don't know what to do.
My eyes are crying endless tears,
My mind is shutting down,
I can't feel anything anymore,
Except the pain I am left in to drown.

The man in the house I am scared of,
He is bringing so much rejection and hate,
His accusing glares and hateful eyes,
Make me forget how to even walk straight.

I feel like I have been,
Slapped across the face,
And thrown into a dark room...
It's like what I thought I had,
Has run away,
And I wake up to such loneliness,
Every single day.

I want to run away and hide,
I don't want anyone to see me,
I want to be away from this all,
And just think out my mind...

I want to try and sort this crap out,
And find some answers...
I wanna be able to cry,
Without being afraid of someone seeing...
It's been bottled up for so long now,
And it needs to come out,
I just want to cry and scream and curse and pout!

I holler for help,
But its like no one hears me...
They just don't care anymore,
And that's making me drift away,
From what I thought I still had...

I'm losing it all and it HURTS SO BAD!

I want to jump off a building...
I'll spread my wings and fly away...
I don't want to come back down,
And I don't want to wake up the next day!

I don't want this life anymore!
I just want to find a place where I'm understood,
I want to feel belonging in my soul...

I just want my heart to be whole.

I've lost so much,
And gained so many problems...

Just let me hide,
Let me get away,
I don't want to face all of this anymore,
I don't want to feel this day after day...

But it goes on and on,
And won't leave anything be...
It's just driving me so mad...
OH LORD HELP ME!

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  • 17 years ago

    by Daniel

    It's me DAniel and this is awsome its proll better than mine so keep it up .... also look at my love poemk cya

  • 18 years ago

    by anz

    WOW...that was good lauren...impressive(i dont know if i spelled that right or now :D)

  • 18 years ago

    by Once an Angel

    Wow, that was a very expressive poem and your skills in writing it amazed me. You sound like your in trouble, and that saddens me. If I could come pick you up and take you away for I while to a bit of safety and sanity (not in any wrong way) then I would, but I think I am too far away. It is good that you are venting your feelings and it is good that:

    "I want to try and sort this crap and find some answers, I wanna be able to cry without being afraid of someone seeing, Its been bottled up for so long now, and it needs to come out, I just want to Cry and scream and curse and pout."

    because that means that you are willing to work to make things okay, and that is a great quality to have. Actually from you profile I would assume you are still in school, so I would suggest that you go meet with your guidance counselor. She might be just the right person to vent you feelings to, help you understand why you are feeling them and then help you figure out what to do about it to help you feel better. She might be the person to listen that you need. I don't know much about your family life, and you seem to me worried about it too, but if there is someone in your family that you feel comfortable talking to then do that too. It is health and good to find a way to express yourself well, and to express youself in the right ways. I hope I was helpful, and I send you the biggest hug in the world.

    -Tainted

  • 18 years ago

    by Fallengod667

    "Ive lost so much, and gained so many problems" this line is very powerful...i can relate to it completly...another great poem..5/5

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