Life I'm Trying To Keep

Let me tell you a story about a kid
With his whole life ahead but it stopped from something he did

He made choices that affected his life
He went to the drugs, bottle and the knife

Some family tried to help him in many different ways
But then he just told people "It's only a phase!"

He quit everything and finally became clean
He wasn't so depressed or obscene

The addiction crept up behind his back
And took his bright world and turned it black

He decided to take one more hit
He decided to feel pain just a little bit

His life of depression came in and knocked him down
It bet him up and smacked him around!

He left for a day or two to try and think
But his whole life changed within one teary-eyed blink

One more hit lead to one gun shot
The past came and made him give all that he had got!

So what do you do when you have followed his path
And now you're afraid of the exact aftermath...

You've been clean for so god damn long
But now, things are just going so wrong!

You were so use to the amounts of pain you had before
That when you have just one last hit, you take even more!

Ashamed to say... i have made that choice
And now I'm fighting with this inside voice...

I want to leave and never say goodbye
I'm getting to confused to even try!

I miss my friend so much everyday
To the point that i want to go away

So what do i do since I'm in too deep?
How do i live this life that I'm trying to keep?