I want something i cant have
dreaming of a reality that doesnt exist
the sun shines in my eyes
i blink the pain of the rays away
but it still doesnt take the reality
of the pain away
the reality is that ive hurt him
the reality is that ive possibly lost him
the one i first loved
the one i still love
the cold cruel reality of pain
is something that can never go away
no matter how many times you shut it out
it just keeps coming back for more
i want my first love back
back in my arms
back in my eyes
back in my hands
i want to be back in his embrace
back in his love
back in his space
i want something that i cannot have
the new beginnings of a love so long ago
coming back so many months later
its un-speakable
asking for love back
maybe, just maybe
i can get it where i want it
back in my arms
my eyes
my dreams
my mind
