My mascara ran today

Sitting on my bedroom floor, holding my knees
I let out a cry “Oh please God please”
Cold crystal tears fall on the paper as I speak
They weigh but nothing, yet make me so weak
I grabbed my brothers picture and couldn’t even pray
I sobbed uncontrollably, couldn’t get out what I wanted to say
He’s grown into a man that I truly do adore
The miles do nothing but make me want to see him more
I grabbed my sister’s picture and just fell on my bed
My blankets now full from the tears that I shed
Why can’t I be like her? Beautiful, smart, and strong
God the answer is still unknown to why the miles are so long
She’s everything I need right now, he’s my missing protection
I wonder if they were here, would I think highly of my reflection?

God sometimes I feel you might be to busy for me
Because my prayers might not even compare to other peoples needs
Lord I pray for this world, sometimes I feel like I’m the only one
People are giving up and claiming the world to be “done”
I’m sick and tired of always being looked down on
People say my religion makes me ugly, when I should look like a pretty swan
People get so offended at the mention of “Christ”
A long time ago if you didn’t believe you were still respectful and nice
Stereotyping people is now a number one goal
There’s no such thing as a clean joke anymore or a person with a good soul
The next generation will be left with such a mess
Thousands will die everyday simply because of stress
I’m not sure why no one will step up to make a change
It’s like our future is already pre-arranged

My mascara ran today thinking of my children’s lives
Wondering if their tears will be worse then my cries
My mascara ran today for my loved ones I can’t see
Tissues were used for those people who aren’t free
There are just those days you need to sit and bawl
Where your list of reasons are long, or you have no reason at all
Does your mascara ever run when you think of the world?
Or think of the future of the unborn boys and girls?
Do you ever just sit in your room and not make a sound
And do nothing but cry as you just look around
The Lord sat and watched my mascara run today
I had a conversation with him although I couldn’t hear what he had to say
I just wish people would think of the world and care
My mascara ran today, because I’m just down right scared