This house I live in is not a home
Everyone fights and nothing nice is said
My siblings hate me
And I'm wondering why anyone would date me
I'm obviously not stable emotional
I'm obviously someone who is closed off
Yet only a few can get me to open up
But this house is not a home
At least I don't feel it is
It's cold and usually full of hate
All the hate usually comes from my brother Joe
Who is usually angry 24/7
He likes to hit me and annoy me
I thought my job was to annoy him not the other way around
He drinks and smokes and makes angry comments
But what I don't get is why he hates the world so much
Maybe he hates himself or maybe he is just that way
But I don't think this house is a home
Especially for someone like me
I'm more of a social butterfly at times
I can also be stand offish and shy
But I make friends where ever I go and help people out
I hate when people tell me what to do
But that's the way I have to live
I'm only 16 but I'm almost 17
How come I'm not trusted more by my parents?
I don't know maybe they want to run my life
But I rather run my own life on my own terms
I just wish they would let me
I have great friends and a great boyfriend
The only problem is I can't enjoy it with my family ruining my life
I can ruin my own life perfectly fine without them doing it for me
I really think this house is not a home
To me at least it isn't
To many fights and staying up late into the night
Waking up way to early and having ups and downs way to many times
I hate this house because it's not a home to me at least it isn't one
