Unspoken saddness

I see I'm hated
I see I'm lost
I see you left me
Without any cost

You never cared
You never loved
You never wanted to meet me
When I was oh so young

You took my heart
And tore it in two
You took my once happy soul
And painted it blue

Everyone warned me
They said, He's bad news
But what did I care?
I didn't listen because I actually loved you

But now, well what can I say?
I'm lost in your trap
Dying in your arms
Wishing to be slapped

I want to wake up
Escape this horrific yet beautiful nightmare
It's beautiful, because of your face
Horrific because of what is exactly taking place

It will never be the same for me
For as you move on, I float silently in black sky
Don't try and help me
I just want to look at you and wave good-bye